If you have ever gone to the grocery store when you are hungry, you know that is usually a recipe for disaster. Instead of making decisions with your head or wallet, you think with your stomach. Unfortunately, your stomach does not care about your budget, the weight you are trying to lose, or the fact that you hated a particular snack last time you bought it.
A similar phenomenon happens when you go out in the hopes of finding “the one.” You expend most of your energy scouring the crowds for Mr. Right. However, when you are that starved for love, your judgment becomes easily compromised. You may wind up connecting with people you know would not interest you if you were not so “hungry,” and then you bring home a “snack” that is not satisfying. We have all been there.
If you accept being single for the moment, you give yourself the freedom to make more informed decisions about who is worth the investment of your time and energy—and who is not. We all have limited personal resources, so it is important to use them where you will gain the most benefit. Accepting your single status enables you to avoid clinging to someone who is a bad match, then struggling to figure out if the relationship is a keeper or not.
It is best to make wise decisions when first meeting a potential mate—before you find yourself stuck in the momentum of the relationship. Remember: When we cannot figure out if we should be in our current relationship, it is often because we should not have pursued that relationship in the first place. And the longer it goes on, the harder it is to change directions.
Contributing to the decision—“should I stay or should I go?”—is the convincing voice that says we should avoid being alone. How many times have we stayed in relationships, experienced unnecessary pain, and endured unhappiness just so we could escape feeling alone? The fear of loneliness often deters us from making and following through on decisions that are in our best interests. If we accept being single, then that fear of loneliness loses its power over us.
Gay men are especially susceptible to the emotional stress that comes with fears of loneliness. This is due in part to the fact that most gay men experience some level of internalized homophobia and this serves to lower our comfort level for being on our own. Because of the abundance of negative words, images, and connections put out there by friends, family, media, and society, we cannot help but take some of that in and mistakenly believe we are bad or negative people. The degree to which we experience feelings of internalized homophobia plays a role in determining how well we are able to love ourselves and how secure we are with ourselves (Weber, 2008). The more we love and believe in ourselves, the less love and validation we need from others in order to feel whole.
Another reason we are more vulnerable to loneliness is the lack of support we received growing up, versus that of our heterosexual peers. Evidence shows that gay men tend to have less support available to them when young (Friedman et al) because: 1) we are more likely to isolate ourselves due to the shame and/or confusion we felt for being different than our peers; 2) we may have felt unsafe getting close to others, especially males, because we did not want them to learn of our sexual orientation; or 3) others may have shunned us because of their limited and negative beliefs regarding homosexuality. Any of these reasons would affect us, making it more difficult for us to feel comfortable being on our own.
In order to help us accept being single—despite feeling like we are actually “starving” to be in a relationship—we must change the way we view our reality. How is that possible? With radical acceptance. At various points in our lives, we have probably practiced this technique. In fact, we employ radical acceptance every time we relinquish control of a situation’s outcome, knowing there is nothing we can do to affect it. When we fully (or radically) accept those things we cannot control, we practice radical acceptance. It does not mean we become complacent and give up; instead it means we acknowledge our inability to manipulate a situation to go exactly the way we would like.
One way to accomplish radical acceptance is through self-talk. We actually tell ourselves, out loud or internally, that whether or not tonight is the night we meet our significant other is out of our control. While there are things we are able to do that will increase our chances of entering a healthy relationship—like accepting being single for the moment—there are still a lot of variables that are beyond our control. If we radically accept this and focus our energy on something more productive, such as living in the moment and enjoying ourselves and our friends when out, we will be happier individuals and make more informed decisions when it comes time to enter a relationship.
Friedman, M.S., Marshal, M.P., Stall, R., Cheong, J., & Wright, E.R. (2008). Gay-related Development, Early Abuse and Adult Health Outcomes Among Gay Males. AIDS and Behavior, 12, 891-902.
Weber, G. N. (2008). Using to Numb the Pain: Substance Use and Abuse Among Lesbian, Gay, and Bisexual Individuals. Journal of Mental Health Counseling, 30, 31-48.